First of all, thank you to everyone that came in here to give me support the last time I wrote. I haven’t really sat back down to the computer since, but when I was at the hospital, living a nightmare, my phone would ding, and I would see your words of encouragement. They mean so much to me.
I don’t want to dwell on last week too much, but I do want to offer you a quick update. Rob woke up, he is starting to put back the pieces of his life mentally. He knows who we are. He finally seems to be understanding what is going on around him. There were times at first where you thought he was with it and understanding, but then he would speak and it was clear he was living in some fantasy that was made up from broken parts of conversations going on around him and memories from the past.
He lost a lot of mobility. He can’t roll over in bed. He can’t swing is legs to the side of the bed to get up on his own. Once he is standing, he can stand forever. I gave him a shower on Saturday and he could have stood there while I washed his body for hours. His biggest struggle is trying to get up from the toilet. He has no strength in his hipflexers. This is a warning to us, 25 deep squats every day just to keep those bad boys moving.
He’ll be going to a rehab facility, probably today. I lost an entire week of work and I have to go pick those pieces up, so he’ll need to deal with that on his own.
On Sunday I started putting my crap back together in the house. The countdown to school starting is getting louder and I wanted certain things in order before that happened. I took back my kitchen and dining room yesterday and moved Erin’s slime making accessories downstairs. She was PISSED at me, but man, that shit is destroying my house!
One thing that really hit home for me last week is my addition to food. I was a week solid into eating carb free and making good choices. When things got hard I ate like a fucking pig. I’m going back to OA, for real this time. I’m working the program hard. Admitting I’m powerless over food – Done! First step cleared.
I’ve pulled out my books, started looking up meetings, started planning my meals. It’s just the next step to figuring this whole thing out.
I’m going to get my coffee going now and I’m going to read a little bit before the kids get dropped off and I have to get my butt out the door. I’m looking forward to writing more tomorrow.